It's always a worry with blogs; that you can allow them to become overly personal. I try hard to not really let my mood affect how I blog although sometimes I think it's good to blog if you're angry about something.
I think my annoyance with the 3 specific things I mentioned about God TV turned into a massive over generalisation. I should have stuck to the point, although I do wonder if a little theological regulation would work? I doubt in reality that this is possible, the church finds it hard to agree with itself at the best of times.
It's not really a climb down, just tempering my anger. God TV still sucks in my eyes, but I hear you John.
The pastor thing is something that is specific to me and really me just working out my own hurt and frustration. Yet once again I don't think you could do a biblical study of the role of pastor and come up with a very strong argument for the model we see outworked in many churches today. I'm sorry if I was offensive to pastors wives.
I haven't been sleeping, got a few aches and pains that are playing on my mind. I am also on a diet so low blood sugar in the morning hasn't helped either.
I also haven't got too much time on my hands, in fact I am pleasantly busy. Ibiza is an island with a population of 120,000 people all year round so there's plenty to be getting on with. There is a whole load of stuff I do that I can't blog about primarily because it is relational and long term. To me it is just as exciting as the summer, although not as hectic or adrenalin fueled.
I am also stressed about my lack of understanding as to how a semi colon works, but that is quite a minor irritation.
This whole money thing is also playing on my mind, I have had to do a little repenting about trying to fix God's problems for him! Also the exchange rate is pants; most of our support comes in pounds we were getting 1.50 euro to the pound in the summer that is now closer to 1.25. This means my rent has increased considerably etc...
As with most stress it is never one thing, just a combination of them all.
Okay so this was personal, I will try to regain balance over the next few weeks.
Thanks for your patience and kindness.