Tuesday, April 14, 2009


Ok, so yesterdays post was cathartic thanks for all the kind messages and comments, you're all very kind to me. I couldn't find an image for cathartic so found this lovely selection of suction catheters instead......

It was a low day but I will not stay low for long, I guess it's been on and off like this for a few months but the lower days are getting further apart which is good. A lot of adjustment to life can only in the end be good for us. I love what it says in

Romans 5: 2 -5
And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

I guess as a Christian I am always wanting to grow, but I probably don't like the idea of that growth being through emotionally tough situations. I am sure I am being changed by this process but somewhere along the line in my life here I have become comfortable. Even with the desperate situations that we deal with in the west end, to tell you the truth you get used to it, it doesn't seem extraordinary it's just life and I have grown to be comfortable with it. On one level this is necessary but on another level I don't think we were ever called to be comfortable. I have become a victim of my own teaching, I have often said that I feel God wants to move us out of the comfort zone and have believed that I was out of it, but I wasn't!!!!

So here's to life on the edge, I have to embrace it, flow with it, learn to let new challenges shape me and make me. My prayer is one I heard a Jamaican preacher pray in 1990 and it's one I use a lot. "God make me the man you want me to be, not the man I want to be" got to keep praying this and expect that sometimes in His shaping of me I won't always like it.

My dad posted a very encouraging blog today which also helped me a lotRead it here

So, yes today I am refreshed by the challenge, up for it and willing to do what it takes to make it happen.

We're weird aren't we? Emotionally inconsistent beings, one day we are up for the challenge the next day we are down, one day we are happy the next we are sad! At times I wish I was a robot, but most of the time I enjoy being complex just like everybody else!

I also hope I never have to wear a catheter........


Di said...

D'you know, it really helped me to read a post from someone else finding things hard just now, especially at this time of year when it feels like we "should" somehow be super-spiritual. It spoke to me - probably because I find myself in a similar situation just now in my own life.

One of the things that God reminded me of this weekend was really simple: just that in the middle of the "stuff", whatever, remember to keep being "joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer" (Rom 12:12). God'll do the rest.

I heard you speak at Hope 08, and I was really struck by your passion and how God's using you. Keep on keeping on!

Grace & peace.

nichola said...

I had to wear one once - not pleasant!!! I stumbled across your blog and have really enjoyed reading your thoughts - keep them coming X