Monday, February 12, 2007
Messed up head
My head is a little messed up of late, I have been trying to blog, but just can't seem to get out what I want to say!
I have read a book called The Irresistible Revolution by a guy called Shane Claiborne, in all honesty it has been the most challenging thing I have looked at in years. I read loads of books, but this one I want to read slowly and a few times. I, like many of us, live with the niggle in the back of my mind that "There has to be more" my problem is I often focus on what I don't want without ever truly coming up with a new way of how I want to be. I feel this book giving me some answers, but also frustration.
I think this guy is a prophetic voice for our generation, I wrote a rant last week about the prophetic, but didn't publish it as it is more out of my own hurt than informed thinking. However I do think that the church has to find it's prophetic voice in this generation, it's just that the framework I have seen the prophetic modelled through doesn't seem to fit.
We need to become a voice, but how? I love personal prophecy, it's very encouraging and builds me up, which is what it is meant to do. So on one level I am there but the other level of church being a prophetic voice some how alludes me.
What do I stand for? How do I live? What marks me out as different? Surely it has got to be more than my beliefs? Or should I say my beliefs should affect the way I live and on one level they do, but am I really that different than anyone else? Have I been living out a westernised materialistic version of my faith? Have I been engulfed in a system that is contrary to the system or life style of Christ? Church culture is a powerful thing and I am scared that we talk about breaking out of this culture and transforming the culture around us, scared because it is sad that the very culture we have created can restrict us from affecting the other culture of the world...
I am happy living with these questions at the moment, I would value your thoughts....