Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Rattle and Hum

Just listening to an album I haven't listened to in years, Rattle and Hum, not meant to be one of U2's best albums, but I like it.

In God part 2 there is a great line

" listening to a singer on the radio late last night, says he's gonna kick the darkness til it bleeds daylight"

I am very busy at the moment, 24-7prayer have a little book coming out in June called "Writing on the Wall" it's a compilation of prayers from around the world that have been written in 24-7 prayer rooms. I have been involved with this project for a number of years and just need to spend some time on it, so I have writers block for everything else!

Here's one of the prayers:

So Alone
Written by a young woman
who had attempted suicide several times after losing her sister:

I have many questions. Lots are difficult.
God, if my sister hadn’t died, perhaps I wouldn’t be where I am now.
Perhaps things would be better with my parents. Maybe I would feel “normal”?
I might be able to talk (share my deep feelings with someone)
and not get so desperate. Maybe I wouldn’t feel so empty.
So distant (afraid of what others may think of me).
I put on such a brave face yet inside I feel weak and ready to crumble.
I can’t get close to people, God. I take a long time to trust them.
And when I do, I am scared I will be rejected and pushed away.
I have such a fear when I look at old people.
It may sound strange, but—as I see their bodies and how they have deteriorated—I feel scared.
I don’t want to be like that.

* * *
I have tears trapped inside me from years and years.
I have bottled up feelings tangled inside.
I find it so hard to believe that anyone would love me—
You know, love me without any strings attached.
If I do something wrong—make any mistakes—surely I should be punished? Made to feel small?
* * *
I was once in my mother’s womb—I felt the big closeness. Yet now I feel distant.
I don’t feel close to anyone. I haven’t for years. I’ve coped alone.
But now, God, I can’t. I’m fed up. I give up.
I am so sick of being alone. I need peace.
My heart feels physically tangled up. Twisted and torn, hurt and broken.
* * *
I ask you today to begin to heal me.
Save me before it’s too late.
Out of anyone, you can.
* * *
I love you. Have your way in me.

7 comments:

Mark (Island boy) said...

One of my favourite lines: "kick in the darkness 'til it bleeds daylight" that line comes from Bruce Cockburn - "lovers in a dangerous time" - one of the great christian (unrecognised) prophetic artists, who has walked the creative margins all his life. Thank God for the artists, who help us see the world with new eyes. Maybe that's the same as prayer should be?

dan said...

Hey,

Glad to hear that the book will finally be coming out - looking forward to being wrapped up in it.

::dan::

J-Mac said...
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J-Mac said...

Don't believe in excess
Success is to give

Linda said...

"I don't believe that rock 'n' roll can really change the world/As it spins in revolution, baby/ it spirals and turns/I - I believe in love." God Part II is from rattle and run - spirals and turns is the name for my blog

Anonymous said...

Hey! hope you guys are well? Havent heard from you in a long time- have you been getting my emails?
Take care, Emma xx

Brian Heasley said...

Emma, we have had no emails!!!! please catch me on skype or email me on mail@24-7ibiza.com