Thursday, March 27, 2008

3 Years

Today is the 3rd anniversary of our arrival in Ibiza.

This time 3 years ago we where on a ferry from Barcelona to Ibiza, we arrived in the evening to our new house and a new adventure.

What's interesting is that when we first thought of coming we said we would give ourselves 3 - 5 years, well it definitely isn't going to be 3 years and I doubt it will be 5, it's going to take longer than we thought but that's okay.

How do I feel about our 3 years? Not to sure really, I still feel like a stranger in a foreign land, struggling with the language and not feeling totally integrated.

My life has changed immeasurably since we left the UK, I know I am different person now. I guess it's the ego that finds it hardest to be here. I had a good role in the UK I was busy and fulfilled I knew how to do life in the UK, here I have days when I am not so busy, moments when I feel isolated. Without wanting to have a pity party; I occasionally feel lonely. It's not that I was the most socially active person in the Uk just that if you wanted to see a friend, a peer or a family member it was easy to do. 

It's a battle of the will at times, I have to keep coming back to that line "Not my will but your will be done".

I read a book once and one of the lines said "welcome to valley of the long distance runners" thats how it feels here at times; a marathon in a valley, you've got to keep going, push through the walls and ignore the fact that you can't always see over the mountains.

I'm not depressed just reflective.

Positives outweigh the negatives:

1. This has been great for my children, they are learning languages, making great friendships and developing in confidence and maturity.
2. My wife has really learnt the language and has had a complete role change which gives her life.
3. The weather is great.
4. The wine is cheap.
5. I can walk my dog by the Mediterranean sea every day, it's 500 metres from my front door.
6. Our work here is growing; the prayer room and centre is fantastic.
7. What we do in the westend is fulfilling and it really makes a difference.
8. I have prayed more in the last 3 years than ever before.
9. God has been good he has provided for us, we have had food to eat, a roof over our heads and been able to pay for the school fees.
10.  We have all been healthy.
11. It's been humbling to rely on other peoples generosity to survive.
12.  Puke, blood and dealing with drunks isn't that bad, in fact it's very rewarding.
13. The hard path can be most rewarding choice you ever make.
14. It's not about being happy, it's about having life. Ibiza gives us life it doesn't always make us happy.
15. I want to go home but don't know where home is any more, this a hard but good place to be. Home is less about a destination and more about the people you share life with.
16. Maybe this is home now.


hel-ann said...

thanks for not leaving ibiza today.

Anonymous said...

Thanks Brian for being a little further ahead and telling those of us who are just putting our running shoes on that it's really not that bad... in fact it's where we find life.
Beth A

Dan King said...

Happy Anniversary.

Today we are also making a move to a new home on a beautiful island off the west coast of Canada! I pray the impact we will see is full of the same Grace that yours has been.


andrew said...

I really like this statement:

14. It's not about being happy, it's about having life. Ibiza gives us life it doesn't always make us happy.

Way to go Brian!

From Andrew
Perth, Australia

lisa said...

Congratulations, Heasley family!

I relate well to your number 14, 15 and 16. And I think 2 is wonderful.


Anonymous said...

I think that you are ahead of your time and leading out. I love your honesty and your intentions. I have made #13 a favorite quote on my face book. I am able to relate. Keep working the fields.

Wendy said...

Stumbled across your blog and have been reading it for about 6 months. I lived in Spain for 4 years, miss it like crazy, and love not only what your doing for The LORD, but for your courage. Hang in there! It's a beautiful thing to watch someone live with a reckless abandon. Thanks from the state of Texas in the USA!