Tuesday, July 08, 2008
I've seen so much in so many places
So many heartaches, so many faces
So many dirty things
You couldn't even believe
I hope thats not to over dramatic, it's a great line and pretty well sums up the last few days.
I can't give you loads of details as it would be inapropriate and an abuse of trust. We have dealt with some mess, people hurt and damaged.
What I feel I can talk about doesn't do it justice, boy's beaten up and taken to hospital, a guy covered in puke with his mate sitting in it carrying him to the van getting it smeared on us, another guy completely wrecked and vomiting taken back to hotel, a disturbing conversation with a hotel porter who had a major trauma with a holiday maker, a teenage girl abandoned by her boyfriend who we had to take home, this is just Helen and myself, 2 out of a 10 person team and it all happened in 3 hours!! Goodness knows if we wrote all that happens to us as a group every time we go out.
The picture above should sum it up, thats me in the red, we stand looking out on something that is large and imposing, there is a vastness to it that overwhelms and leaves you with a feeling of smallness and inadequacy.
There are times when I don't know how to process all we see and other times where it is so busy it all just rolls into one and I don't get time to process.
I don't feel overloaded with it, more a sense of numbness, like a wave of mess we just witness every night we are out. We put ourselves in the position of finding the mess so we ask for it, but that doesn't make it easy.