Friday, July 09, 2010
I'm worried we don't need God anymore
I read this great quote today "It's difficult to get the same fruit as the early church when we value the book they didn't have more than the Holy Spirit they did have"
I wonder if it goes deeper than that, I wonder if somewhere along the line we have substituted a living active community of Jesus followers outworking their faith in their everyday lives for something else?
I'm not sure what that something else is. This isn't rant against any form of church, we all outwork our faith in a faith community in so many different ways and I would hate to be so arrogant as to think that my ideas on how it should be done are anywhere close to being the only answer.
I've arrived at a much more content place when it comes to other expressions of church, there is more than one right answer, more than one right way of doing things. Yet I still live with a niggle, something just under my skin.
It's not really a "there must be more than this?" niggle anymore. If this is all there is then I am happy, I am pretty sure it is not all there is, but I am content, not striving, not driven, yet somehow I remain restless. Is it ok to be grown up and restless?
My restlessness does not make me want to move or change how I do things, the external hows and whys of church activity will always present me with a platter of likes and dislikes. We have to learn to be happy with diversity and randomness.
This inner restlessness is more to do with us, our own position, how we process and outwork our faith. I know this all sounds incredibly individualistic but we have to find an inner peace that can invoke a calm that enables us to deal with outer turmoil and frustration. Moving and changing the externals won't do that. Remain frustrated with how a certain church chooses to outwork it's community activity will get you nowhere. Inner peace and the uptake of our own personal responsibility to live our lives as effective disciples of Jesus within which ever faith community we find ourselves in, will.
I'm worried we don't need God anymore because we have so much external activity and busy-ness around the workings of church and our communities that we can actually look very Godly and live very faithfully without any real spiritual depth. If we are consumers the 21st century church sure has provided us with enough consumables to keep us busy for years.