Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Back to school
This photo was taken last week, but they won't be smiling like this tomorrow!
My boys go back to school tomorrow, so in the morning we will be getting up at 7am, we have been going to bed at about 6am!! some nights, so it is quite a trasition back to a normal routine.
I worry about being a parent. Am I to grumpy? Do I shout when I shouldn't? Does my life get wrapped up in work whilst they grow up around me? Do I give my laptop more attention? Will smoking and saying sh*t when I bang my head have a negative imprint on them? I laugh when they fart and dance on tables! and then I tell them not to...
The other thing I don't get, is how to comb hair without hurting them, they like it long and so do I, but every morning you would think I was pulling their finger nails out as I comb it.
If they scream to much I tell them I will cut it off, number one rule of parenting don't make a threat you won't carry out, I break that one a lot!
Dreadlocks could be the way forward.
I get scared that it is all flying along really quickly. Before you know it they will be men.
Most of the time I am cool with being a dad, but I just have those moments. They are the best two men in my life. Sometimes I wish I could stop time and just hold on to these moments, these days. I am as depressed about them going to scool as they are. I hated school, but I mustn't communicate that to them. I probably do sometimes but they need to have a positive dad. So a healthy direspect for authority but a thirst for knowledge is all I require of them.
Anyway just dad thoughts, we'll play football tomorrow when they get in and all will be well.
at 11:08 PM